Confissões de uma Frigideira em Lavagem

A defesa é amanha, mas nessa semana de pseudo-fe´rias andei lendo como louca...

livros, by patricia cabot andd meg cabot [actually the same author but..]:

Big Boned
An Improper Proposal
A Little Scandal
Lady of Skye
Educating Caroline
Nicola and the Viscount

I completelly forgot to mentiont that.

So, after receing a newsletter email from mcfly, and taht the guys were on twitter I joined, and have been amused since.

Although Danny usually dont post anything at all, Tom my second favorite [fighting dirty now for first] posts thousands times a day.

And best of all, he reads twilights series [i suppose after seen a photo of a copy of eclipse] and Harry Potter.

He believes he would be placed at Hufflepuff. SOOOOOOOOO cute.

So, after my frustrated attmpt to put a mcfly mood theme - those things are, after all beyond me.

I should say what I planning and doing since I've almost disappeared from stuff.

I'm planing to go to Rio to see the concert Mcfly would be making there at the end of May and also see my friend that live there. I miss you guys.

Other than that, my RL has been pretty hectic making me use less net, but I've been reading original fiction desperatly.

so, the rest of my plans, aside from seeing Danny from close distance is:

being able to graduate at the end of the year - yay me

on the net. I want to invest in my original fiction, Three Aint too much and, take my ever first fanfiction down to make it original too. And post it in english but also in portuguese.

guess that would be the more important and close to complete things for now.

ta ta peeps.

D.

testing

So... E nem fui eu quem fiz ^^ Mas acho que dá pra ser feliz seguindo, o teste quem recou foi a alis-clow

you chose CY - your Enneagram type is SIX (aka "The Loyalist").

"I am affectionate and skeptical"

Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family, friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative.

How to Get Along with Me

* Be direct and clear.
* Listen to me carefully.
* Don't judge me for my anxiety.
* Work things through with me.
* Reassure me that everything is OK between us.
* Laugh and make jokes with me.
* Gently push me toward new experiences.
* Try not to overreact to my overreacting.

What I Like About Being a SIX

* being committed and faithful to family and friends
* being responsible and hardworking
* being compassionate toward others
* having intellect and wit
* being a nonconformist
* confronting danger bravely
* being direct and assertive

What's Hard About Being a SIX

* the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind
* procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence in myself
* fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of
* exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger
* wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right
* being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations

SIXes as Children Often

* are friendly, likable, and dependable, and/or sarcastic, bossy, and stubborn
* are anxious and hypervigilant; anticipate danger
* form a team of "us against them" with a best friend or parent
* look to groups or authorities to protect them and/or question authority and rebel
* are neglected or abused, come from unpredictable or alcoholic families, and/or take on the fearfulness of an overly anxious parent

SIXes as Parents

* are often loving, nurturing, and have a strong sense of duty
* are sometimes reluctant to give their children independence
* worry more than most that their children will get hurt
* sometimes have trouble saying no and setting boundaries

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy
Discover the 9 Types of People
Harper SanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

OMFG

I never thought that I could freak out that way, but Mcfly will be here, on Brazil to make concerts! *dies again and again*

And I will go. ASAP I buy my ticket, online, since they wont be coming to my town, but who cares:

They're coming!!!!!!!!!

I have no idea if someone already stop here to read, but the fact is,I barelly post around,so I usually do not go around checking out my friends page.

This fact is also probably due to me not knowing or understanding very clearly how to use my LJ.

( But, every now and then... )

I never, ever, ever thought of feeling this disappointed, and angry and mad at a book ever written by Meg Cabot. I know I've got quite often lately been with JKR but not with Meg. Her books have a tendency to just got better and better. Jinx is a proof better than anything. It even got me drawing! And only God knows that I didn't do that neither for Hannibal or Twilight series.

And I know I should have learned by now that keep my promises to myself I always get winnig at the end. I've told myself that the Princess Diaries series had lost the appeal they first had to me long ago, since I've turned more to SheWent All The Way kind of books. And damned be my two friends that keep tolding me that the book was great. It was NOT great.

SO NOT GREAT.

I want to strangle Mia right now. I swear! That JP is a fucking manipulator, and she is so fucking oblivius that is impossible to someone be. I'm sooo disappointed, and the way it ends! Tha email that she sent him! Oh God... Michael should so NOT anwser her. I'm sorry? I'm the one sorry here, not Mia. It really sucks. I'm almost aweraing that I would never read a book of her again. But if in the end of the series, at book 10 Mia didn't got back to Michael, I really will. God, I want a Michael myself. He was my first modern prince ever. And still is my prefered, after Hannibal, and John Trent. But hewas the first I've got acquaitanced. And would be a sortilege if he couldn't get his princess.

I know... And I must tell that the first twenty minutes were hard for me.

But, the time for the different maybe is starting you know? We've got a few years ago our first black female in a leading role on a soap opera here in Brazil. And obviously it never was just 'cause of the talent. As the same way about the fat or big people. Or for the homosexual ones too.

Everyone is a little discriminative, in some sorts. It would be hypocritical not to say that [and thank you Avenue Q to confirm that], or not to know that. But, the people that do not support the 'common' ones, or that fight with that, are much more open to be proven wrong sometimes. Or everytime. I for an instance would very much like to see that I'm wrong in a lot of things.

So, back to the topic, if you do not like musicals, don't even try it, 'cause it would be like torture for you. But, on the other hand, for those who enjoy musicals, and are open to what is not conventional, you will like it a lot.

First of all, Travolta is back on musicals, but not on the role of the cute hot guy that gets the cute sweet inocent girl. He's got the role of the mother of the girl. And to make it better, her mom's is big, make it huge even. And he knows how to dance in heels man! Only woman can understand that equilibrium is hard on those, dancing then... It's definitely, a dangerous step to make. I would have to be honest and say that his personification of his female side was not as well personificate as Eddy Murphy but, he done that very well.

Now, the main female character... She's not blondie, or skinny, or smart too. So why does she's the main character after all? She may be a brunette, a fat one, and, a lil' stupid too. At least in the topics that include school. [Sue me if I like the nerds one] But, she rocks at dancing, is a dreamy person, but, better than all of that, she fights for her beliefs, and stands for them, and it's not even a lil' afraid to shout them to everyone around. Even, if it might include losing the guy of her dreams.

So, I like a lot the movie. If all the bullshits I've said before wasn't enough, I luv the costumes [Hey! I'm girl who likes the fashion]. And, in the final scene, she's kinda of really nice, looking like Kelly Klarckson, a lil' shorter and fatter, but very nice still. They change their reallity.

And I know the black people from US are not that receptive with the white people. But, if nobody starts it, it never will change. The only missing discriminate people, were the homosexuals, and, they could have rock it at the move too. And I would have like it much more if, in the ending Tracy have ended with Seawood than with Link. He was too shallow. But...a good movie xD

Probably the title is wrong, but the fault of this belongs to Tach, and no link 'cause I sux at LJ stuff...

Once you have read this meme, there's no turning back.

Below are true descriptions of zodiac signs, with traits from a book written 35 years ago by an astrologist's predictions. Read your sign, then forward it on, with your zodiac sign and label on the subject line, This is real deal, try ignoring it, and the first thing you'll notice is having a horrible day starting tomorrow morning - and it only gets worse from there.

VIRGO - The One that Waits
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

SCORPIO - The Addict
EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Can predict the future. Great kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

LIBRA - The Lame One
Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! However not the kind of person you want to mess with... You might end up crying... 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

ARIES - The Bold One
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, Addictive. Loud. 16 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

AQUARIUS - Does It In The Water
Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out. 2 years of bad luck if you do not forward

GEMINI - Irresistible
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in the you know where... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE. 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward

LEO - The Lion
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

CANCER - The Cutie
MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to. 12 years of bad luck if you
do not forward.

PISCES - The Partner for Life
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

TAURUS - The Tramp
Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in the you-know-where!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with...you might end up crying. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

Depois de duas tentativas infrutíferas no msn, percebi que as pessoas não tê muita idéia de qual é realmente meu shipper favorito.

Se alguém acertar, faço uam fic nos conforme da pessoa ganhadora.

duas chances pra cada

meme roubada da nic_snape

1. Can you cook?
2. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. Favorite place?
5. Favorite vegetable?
6. What was the last book you read?
7. Are you Dirty or Clean?
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
9. Worst Habit?

HERE COMES THE FUN ...
1. How did we meet?
2. What's your philosophy on life?
3. Negative or Optimistic?
4. What was your dream growing up?
5. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
6. What was your first impression of me?
7. Tell me one weird fact about you:
8. Whats your favorite memory of us?
10. Have you ever kept anything from me?
11. What do you think of me as a Person?
12. Do you think I'm sane or insane?
13. Would you cry for me if I died?
14. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
15. If you could change anything about me, would you?
16. How do you fall asleep?
17. Ever gotten angry with me?
18. Would you go on a blind date if I set you up?
19. If you had one day to live, what would you do?
20. A million bucks.. what would you do with it?
21. What is your worst fear?
22. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
23. Can you sing or dance?
24. In one word, how would you describe me? Be honest....
25. Will you repost this so I can fill it out ?

2006 veio e se foi, e bem, eu enrolei tanto que a 'lavagem' que eu queria ter feito, não fiz. Mas ainda não virou um ano novo na minha vida então acho que ainda dá tempo.

O ocmeço do último foi promissor, e bem algumas promessas se cumpriram, outros desastres vieram e eu continuo aqui. Nem sempre o começo traz presságio do fim, ainda bem alguams vezes, e que pena em outras. Mas fiz amizades no último ano, aprofundei outras e isso conta mais que qualquer outra coisa. Se estou relativamente inteira hoje aqui sentada na frente do monitor bem... é graças a esses amigos.

Não foi um ano nada fácil, ver que simplesmente querer e correr atrás nem sempre vai funcionar [e não só quando se trata de amor], quebrou mais que meu coração. Ter que deixar uma das poucas coisas que eu valorizo tirou meu chão. E eles estavam lá. E então eu fui capengando. Um emprego novo, um senhor corte e bem, agora eu estava encarando de frente a questão.

E o tempo maldito... Os acontecimentos da minha vida e da dos outros afastaram certas pessoas que eu certamente gostaria que continuassem onde estavam e eu não posso fazer nada a respeito. Nada além de continuar onde eu estou e se eventualmente elas se lembrarem da pessoa aqui, estar com os braços abertos mas... a mesma sensação que me diz que não posso ter tudo o que quero me diz que não vou ter de volta. E eu acho que simplesmente sei que é verdade, eu não podia segurar então deixei ir... Rezando em pensamentos pra que voltasse mas... o silêncio é a resposta sempre. A não ser que eu esteja quase morrendo mas.. até la, só ele como resposta mesmo.

Lamentações e lamentações à parte o novo ano começou diferente, com umn ar de reviravolta, de retomada gostoso. Me acabei na virada, como não fazia a anos, finalmente acho que estou pronta pra deixar um fantasma partir, e estou encarando isso como um bom sinal. Mas os outros... será que se vão assim? Fui apresentada ao melhor seriado de todos os tempos, QaF. Estou apaixonada, aliás impossível não estar.

Continuo devorando Meg Cabot como sempre, me identificando com cada uma delas... Lizzie, Mel, Katie, e todas as outras, e isto inclui a Mia, obviamente. Sonhando que exista meu Trent por aí, ou um Luke ou um Michael quem sabe? xD

O mau humor pré aniversário pra variar a rotina dos anos anteriores continua, e bem... acho que eu devia escrever vez ou outra.. e pra variar fazer algum sentido nas raras vezes que eu resolvo fazer isso.

Já comentei que estou ansiosa pra voltar pra faculdade? Já comprei os cadernos *-* Sempre gostei de comprar material escolar, embora agora não tenha mais graça comprar milhoes de canetas coloridas e com cheiros e por aí... Mas ainda gosto e só não tive coragem de comprar o codigo comentado por 180 reais. simplesmente não tenho.

e por hoje é só pessoal xD

Não vou mentir que pensando um bocado no mundo as vezes eu nunca me perguntei qual o problema do mundo.

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não perguntem porque eu quase não posto e sempre que posto são coisas nonsense.

bye

roubada descaradamente da hasardeuse

( a corrente )

Não cheguei a conclusão sedeveria ou não postar isso realmente mas...

Como duas pessoas muito bacanas e especiais pra mim sugeriram a mesma coisa, acho que algo deve ser levado em conta, já que uma é minha mommy e a outra pessoa é meu amigo ficreader o leo.. xD acho que vou postar nossos diálogos durante as aulas de processo penal, é hhilário xD vou tomar coragem e digitar nossos debates sobre draco e harry xD

então... o algo que disse que ia postar em cima xD É isso e por algo razão da qual eu desconheço estou feliz...

( 'algo' )

Teste roubado da nicolle_snape

Todos temos.. Mas é tão complicado... Uma hora se ama, outra se odeia, e ainda assim é uma coisa que não se pode simplesmente abdicar.
Ok, algumas pessoas fazem isso. Embora eu pessoalmente nunca vá conseguir. Mesmo com os tios que olhos com desprezo e desdém por fingirem gstar de mim e dos meus irmãos, mas que mesmo morando na mesma cidade só se lembram da gente quando meu pai vem do extremo do país pra passar alguns dias.

Tem meus irmãos... Que são um pedaço de mim. Tenho cinco, embora dois nem conheça de fato. Minha irmã que vem logo depois de mim sempre arranja um meio ou outro de desmanchar meu coração. Pra alguém como eu, que valoriza, pequenos detalhes mais que os 'grandes', cada coisa assim, faz mais que simplesmente iluminar meu dia. Aliás... cada um dos três que moram comigo são assim a seu modo. Embora meu irmão, de um modo estranho acho eu, goste de me ver irritada e gritando xD

E minha mãe... Como falar? A seu modo, ela sabe ser cruel, e muito, quando o quer. Mas em compensação ela tem um carinho, e se mata por nós. Como eu posso não amá-la? Mesmo quando eu poderia odiá-la tão facilmente. E tem meu pai, que mesmo a seu modo distante, está aqui. E minha avó... Mesmo com seu jeito ultra reclamão, e com seu tempramento um tanto dificil as vezes é impossível não amar. E tem meu padrasto... meu segundo pai. E ele não é propriamente meu padrasto, mas eu o considero, pq é meu segundo pai. Tem um carinho e um cuidado com a gente como se fôssemos seus filhos também.

E tios... bom, boa parte deles eu realmente não gosto, ou digo que não me importo por motivos que já falei acima. Mas tem um que mora aqui em casa... E tem coisas que eu realmente não suporto na personalidade e no jeito dele. Como o modo que ele tem negligenciado o filho. Parte meu coração e o de todo mundo aqui em casa.

É triste ver que, mais uma criança, querendo ou não, vai carregar essa cicatriz pra sempre. E nem mesmo todo o carinho que ele recebe da família da mãe dele não podem e não vão curar o abandono do pai. As promessas quebradas, as tardes esperando um telefonema, a ausência no fim das contas. E meu tio troca tudo isso pelo que? Por noites de gandaia em barzinhos com um bando de vagabundas. Sem ofensas, mas é fato. Antes dele começar com essa de ir a barzinhos, ele era outra pessoa.

Nunca tinha visto um pai tão dedicado ao filho antes, mesmo quando ele separou e veio morar aqui em casa. O mundo dele era meu primo, tudo era m presente pro menino, que ele ia levar o garoto ali, e não sei aonde. Agora? Nem atende a um telefonema do filho. Vive colocando empecilhos que não existem, dando desculpas mais que esfarrapadas pra não passar um tempo com ele. Talvez por isso eu nunca tenha querido ser mãe... Nunca tive aqueles sonhos de menina de casar e ter filhos. Mas nunca mesmo. Meu sonho de futuro nunca incluiu casamentos, igrejas, e filhos. Embora meu tormento seja não poser ser uma exceção da exceção.

Sempre que eu falava que nunca quis e não quero ter filhos vi aqueles olhos arregalados em espanto me olhando. E não quero mesmo. Com o mundo do jeito que é, não precisamos de mais um ser imaculadamente inocente para ser magoado e violentado a nossa volta. Não há nada mais cruel que ouvir que uma coisainha com dias de vida foi achada no lichão, na rua.. Ou mesmo orfanatos. Já tem crianças demais no mundo ansiando, desejando, precisando de carinho e atenção para ter mais uma no mundo. Se algum dia eu sentir a vontade de ser mãe, adoto. Mãe é a que cria, e não a que pari. Sei que não deve ser nada fácil ter agluém dentro de si, crescendo e nascendo, mas ser mãe é muito mais que isso. Eu acho. E acho que no fim é isso...

agora acho que já chega... até eu perdi o fio da meada.. ou aonde queria chegar com isso tudo